Making my way through my bloglines list, I have come to realize how many knitbloggers are pregnant or have recently given birth. It’s making me a little sad today. Not that I’m not happy for them, because it’s wonderful that they’re going through such a wonderful time in their life, and I know they’ve got to be so excited about their upcoming little one. But I’m reminded of the fact that I can’t have that for some reason. Those of you who have gone through infertility know what I’m talking about. It seems that everywhere I turn is a big pregnant belly. One day Jason and I went to Home Depot and counted 5 pregnant women and 3 little tiny infants. At Home Depot! I won’t even talk about our trip to Ikea… that one was really rough, and I broke down in the middle of the store. It’s like a smack in the face of what we can’t seem to have… it’s a little tough sometimes. Another person just anounced that they’re pregnant at my office. That makes one couple pregnant with a set of triplets, two more pregnant women, and another that just gave birth in my tiny office. I can’t even get away from my failure when I’m at work. Not to mention the celebrities… now Christina Aguilera and Nicole Ritchie have just announced pregnancies. Sigh.
Some days are better than others, and today is not one of the better ones. I’m sure I’ll feel better tomorrow or the next day… one day at a time.
Sorry for the depressing post, I just had to get it off my chest. I promise to be back later with details on my weekend and my birthday presents 
Thanks to all who wished me a happy 29th!
July 4, 2007 at 9:28 pm
I understand how you feel. My best friend at work and I found out we were pregnant in the same week. She is at ten weeks and mine isn’t going to work out.
July 6, 2007 at 10:20 am
Hugs to you today.
July 6, 2007 at 10:55 pm
honey, you’re not afailure. you have not failed. i know it’s hard. *hugs*
July 18, 2007 at 10:46 am
I know I’m a little late with this, but hope your feeling a bit better. I know how you feel. My problem is not infertility, but the lack of stability/partner to start the family I’ve always dreamed of having. I love all my friends children and my nieces but sometimes I’m just overcome with sadness that it will never be me. It’s one of those things that’s been growing as I moved into my mid 30’s and my time is running out. I know it’s not the same as your problems, but I can relate. I’ve caught myself distancing myself from some of my friends with small children, just because it’s so tough.
Keep your chin up and focus on all the good things you do have. I try to keep focused on the fact that I have the two sweetest nieces that I adore.